Coming out... As Christian.

A Letter I wrote to my Daughters on my recent conversion. Dear Daughters, I hope you get a chance to read this and take some time to reflect on it. I know my recent conversion to Christianity has got to come as a bit of a shock. No more to you than it has been to me I assure you. As you know my Zen practice has always had a driving principal of “Great Doubt” so converting to a religion that requires great faith seems like a stretch. But you can also be confidant that I did not come by this conversion easily nor without considerable investigation. This all started interesting enough, without the intention of conversion but [RDACTED] Well, you know me, before I jump in to a shark tank like that I want to be prepared. So I decided to start doing research. Bought a bible, started reading, got frustrated as stuff just didn’t like up with my own worldview. It was not going well. So after a quick internet search I got a free book from a guy named “Dwight Moody” about “How to Study the Bible” and something clicked. I was able to get into a disciplined reading regimen in the evenings, while listening to podcasts and asking open questions on a search engine about “What does the bible say about this?” and so on. I found out a lot of the stuff I was told, and subsequently had told others about Christianity just was not true and I that had not ever looked at Christianity as an honest broker without some preconceived bias. And if I passed that bias on to you that would be most regrettable. For this great failure of my own personal integrity I want to apologize to you. If I had put 10% of the effort that I had spent studying Zen on studying Christianity, I could have been so much a better father to you. So for that, I am greatly sorry. I should have given you girls a better chance to fight against worldliness by giving you a strong foundation in the Gospels. I don’t know if there is anything I can do as your father to make up for that failing. But I will prey that the Holy Spirit comes to you, and that you too can be saved. If you need help towards that end let me know. I’m happy to answer questions or just be an ear to listen. There is a link below to an audio book that was written by a guy who was also a sceptic, it’s long, and detailed, and gives a well-researched account for the reality of Christ that may be helpful if you are like me, not one to take things on faith so easily. As for me, I no longer have any doubts. Lee Strobel / The Case for Christ (Audio Book) - YouTube